Thanks for the response, Steve. I get that the changes are for me. It almost seems like having no hope makes the changes completely about me. The having hope part keeps the changes about her (partially, at least). I have been GAL and detaching as much as I can. I've been keeping busy. Talking to and hanging out with old friends, golfing tomorrow for the first time in awhile, joined a Lifegroup at church that's dedicated to serving. My emotions are all over the place. One moment I'm sad. Then, happy about my changes at other times. Regrets about things I should have done. A healthy bitterness (healthy because I'm not completely blaming myself) at other times. Then, a peace that things will turn out fine and that God has great plans for me.
