Until recently, the friend had been just as much a friend to me for years as W because our kids are best friends. She did the talking saying that she has noticed a big change from how I was when W first left to now, said I shouldn't lose anymore weight etc. I played it down and moved the conversation on.
"You said W didn't tell this friend anything but then you say W must have given her this impression."
Friend told me how I was before W left. Only W would have thought/known that and friend was sympathetic saying that's how she (friend) often feels. I moved the conversation elesewhere. I was having a great time with the kids but couldn't avoid stood listening to friend as our kids are friends.
Yesterday, I met a single mum. I asked for ideas of places to go with the kids, we swapped numbers and texts last night. I'm trying to get a circle of friends that doesn't involve mutual friends of W and I and that includes some new friends for the kids.
I have noticed some positives at home without W, it's tidier, more relaxed, no undermining me with the kids, not having to walk around on eggshells. Apart from MR, I feel better than I have for a long while. That's why although I do still want MR I know she would have to work hard on some issues that I thought she needed to do anyway. Leaving to be looked after by her parents was the easier option for her.
Very busy at the moment with the kids off school and looking after them full-time on my own, got some work done, received and replied to a draft childcare proposal to W.
