Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

tough time in my head today.
Great evening at home. D had an event so S & I went. W was asleep and didn't go.
It was a great time for us. Just really anxious today and I don't know why.
I did good on detaching and the event helped by soaking up some time (and it was great to be with the kids)
Outside of a concern for my W's health, spent the afternoon and early evening busy around the house and not thinking about the MR.

These seem to be my hardest days. My heart sometimes just aches. I'm lonely. I miss my W. I miss just being happy. I miss doing things as a family and having fun. I do miss family fun times.

There are few people that I speak to about my sitch, and even those few i don't tell them every sordid detail. I mainly have those few friends/ family and this board so thank you for letting me get these feelings out just for a few moments until they pass.

Wow. I haven't been emotional like this in a while.

i'm just gonna sit here for a few minutes, try to relax and refocus.