Hello everyone, first post here. Been reading through the forums for about a week now, and finally have the courage to post my sitch. Here goes.

I'm 32, wife's 26. We have 2 kids s6 d3. Been together for approx. 8 years. Married for 3. Some background info:

We have had our ups and downs like any couple, in 2015 before we got married I had an EA with a coworker of mine. Wife discovered and I broke it off. Been transparent to dullest ability ever since. ...we share FB, phone never hidden locked, etc. BD was on her birthday 8/8. She gave me the classes ilybnilwy. I asked her what I can do to change and she said nothing she's been unable to forgive me regarding my EA (even though at time she said she did and tied the knot after) and my attitude is always unpredictable (I'm no polar). W stated she has constant nightmares etc. I immediately took action and ordered St. Johns wort (helping me a lot) and began searching within myself to become a better H and father. Ordered DB and DR but have yet to receive them. We are still living together sleeping in same bed, although she says on of us must leave soon. Kids own the land left by my deceased uncle. I have messed up and pleaded for her to stay etc and have tried to stop since discovering this site, but it is hard. Yesterday I found some google history on our computer which I confronted her about and she admitted she has been talking to someone else. Said he makes her happy again and smile. Asked if PA and she neither denied nor confirmed. Just saying why does. It matter. She has been looking up divorce proceedings in our state and I feel like I am running out of time. I told her that we can work through this I apologize for my actions in the past and attitude which led her to another man. We had long talk tonight about us and I to her I can continue to change my ways and asked for another chance and she asked why now after all the chances I've given you? She is sleeping now And said she would sleep on it and we would talk again soon about it. Need advice on what to do from here. Thank you in advance. Much love.