WW- Equalzr's saga pt 2. WW's & MLC'er advice plz

[equalzr]

I put together a full week of activities to keep me busy when im not working or taking care of responsibilities at home. Keeping my mind and body busy is a full time job at this point. Within the last week Ive accepted that the marriage i had is DEAD. I do know that the anxiety because of the uncertainty of my future was/is becoming too much. Im glad that ive started seeing an ic again, and the rest ive decided to hand over to God.

I still have no clue how someone can do this to their H and child, and go on with life as if nothing has happened. My feelings have changed over time, and our S seems to keep drifting further away from her as well. She spends a lot of time away from home, spends her time at home in the bedroom messaging OM, and spends a good chunk of her time with S nitpicking him.

Im still in shock and disbelief over this whole ordeal. This doesnt even seem like real life at times.