Wife is not who I married...Pls Help Pt5

[LoneWlf]

RR- thanks again - You were right it got stressful leading up to the meeting but it makes me content that I did things accordingly. As for the 32 inch waist, just so you know at BD I wore a 42-44 inch pants. I see that I was not in a good spot then. It seems now that my W and I have reversed roles I being at more healthy(my healthiest since high school) and her being her heaviest since I've known her. I also attribute my unhealthy miserable self to being in constant pain at the time. Having osteoarthritis in my ankles and knees and after working a 10 hour shift I always was in pain and resorted the the easiest thing to eat and being in pain often times I used food as my comfort and did very little to help around the house. Going thru this process I see now how detrimental that thinking is. At BD I was about 255-260 lbs. And know I am at 194with a goal of 180 which becomes very attainable.

I don't know if it is my detachment process but boy-she is not attractive to me at all right now. I did not feel any pitter patter- none. I spoke to a pretty lady at the gym just recently. She had a nice smile and I liked that she was taking care of herself by going to the gym. She kidded with me on how I should train her. I can see that I find this attractive. Now know I would never let anything proceed while being married although this is a nice boost to my ego.

David UK I see you have posted a couple times and I want to thank you for taking interest in my sitch. In regards to my friend the priest- He was the associate priest at my church when we got married and I have been in touch with him since. He is a true man of GOD - speaks with clarity and allows God's light to shine thru him. He has been instrumental in my healing process. As for your comment with her dress as to not want me to get my hopes up- I never even thought of that. What I do know is because of her current size she is very limited on what she can wear- that is why I made the comment about the fat black pants. If she did it to not lead me on- I can honestly say , I never really thought about it except how unattractive she seems to me at her current state.