Yesterday I met a very experienced councillor. They said they will offer me a dozen sessions for free but I might have to wait a couple of months for that to start. They said the same as everyone else that they are puzzled and troubled by W behaviour, she could become dangerous and thought someone needed to say to her to get help.

W sent a text in the early hours of the morning saying the kids want to know what where the kids and I are going on holiday and would I be with another adult. She asked again in person this morning (as usual since split I'd made a big effort to look my best) and she hid a big sly smile when asking if anyone else. Either she's jealous or wants me to have someone else. I just said that nothing had been confirmed for a holiday.

It's great that the kids are going to be living back at home with me atleast for a while.