Finding my way into the light

[Holding]

LH on point with a 2x4!

I think you missed my point. I miss the good part of the M, not the totality of it. I do realize I deserve better, and I'm looking to find something better in my future R(s). Maybe I'm still in the grieving process, letting go of the last feelings I have of the M, such as it was.

For the rest of my life, what do I want? My main goal at this point is to be financially secure (something I never had in my M). I'd like to find someone to have an awesome R with and possibly get M again, though I also accept that may never happen, and I need to be cool with that.