My H returned early Sunday morning and I did my act of kindness and picked him up from a station as he requested. I did my best to stay cheerful and happy yesterday, GAL- had a coffee with a friend in the park in the morning, then went out shopping and then in early evening I went to a local church service which is rather relaxed community event. My H was grumpy and tired all day but I didn't take the bait. Before going to the church I prepared the chicken and said that he can put in the oven and I will buy the vegetables on my way back. So I happened to be away a bit longer than I initially planned- I stayed over for a chat after with other members and was home 2 hours later. He didn't greet me at all instead said angrily that he hasnt eaten whole day and was looking forward to the chicken, and I just went off and disappeared, left him to make the chicken by himself. It sounded that I am dealing with a five year old!! I just felt so wronged that he could make such a fuss out of F***ing chicken, excuse my language. It made me feel that my only job is to serve him, cook for him and if I put a foot wrong I get this form of passive agressive emotional abuse. After we had supper- which he admitted was actually alright he left to watch Tv and I dd the washing up. Then I was reduced to tears... so I had a quiet cry on my own while doing the dishes. Then I went to take my dog for a walk where I rationalised that his moods are nothing to do with me but him. It is easy to say- not to focus on him but he is infront of my eyes every single day, I wake up with him, I go to sleep with him (where he shows me a cold shoulder to my friendly- goodnight). Yes and he complained that there are no porridge oats this morning! I have no idea why I am being treated like that but I am starting to realise that I am having enough of it.
W34 H61 M1 T3 June-H said he wants divorce but hasn't filed. Living and sleeping in the same bed, no intimacy from H side for last 12 months.
