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[bhappy2]

Uh, no? Not that Im aware of anyway! To my knowledge, i dont know anyone here and if I did, I would absolutely feel that it was an awful invasion of someones privacy to read their thread and thus I would tell them immediately if I thought I knew them. Nor am I connected to anyone here socially, on social media or otherwise. Why would you ask me that??

There was something you wrote that I thought was a way to identify me, sorry did not want to imply you did know anyone here it just looked like you did. If you did I would not feel an invasion of my privacy, its all going to be out in the open soon anyway.

[bhappy2]

As a 24+ year alcohol free recovering alcoholic, I applaud this!

Thank you Steve, I am a social drinker and sometimes on the weekend i have a few. Beer has a tremendous amount of calories not to mention that we also have pizza and snacks. Best to stick to healthy food if I want to run a good half marathon.

Not sure if you are religious at all

yessir, that is what is getting me through this situation.

[HelenaJ]

There was something you wrote that I thought was a way to identify me, sorry did not want to imply you did know anyone here it just looked like you did. If you did I would not feel an invasion of my privacy, its all going to be out in the open soon anyway.

With all the info in my old threads where I even used my own in life names, I think you would know if you knew me long before I would guess to know you haha!

[bhappy2]

With all the info in my old threads where I even used my own in life names, I think you would know if you knew me long before I would guess to know you haha!

Very true, it was just when you said keep on truckin... I own a trucking company....lol.... all is good.

[bhappy2]

Journaling:

I had really good week at work things are busy, busy is good. I have been working out like crazy and on this sat night I am just home relaxing watching some tv. I am all set up for a long run tomorrow, looking forward to it.

I had dinner with S21 tonight, love just hanging with him and joking around. We do not discuss any of whats going on although he asks whats happening i tell him nothing at the moment. I have been driving D19 to and from different jobs as she is trying to make as much money as possible before she goes back to college.

I have continued to not have any alcohol, at least until Aug. 25th. which will be for a party for my cousin who I am roasting. My training is going well, I have had some minor aches and pains in my right knee, I cut my run short that day and took the next day off and all is well. I should have a good 20 mile week.

W has been chatting slightly with me, I am pleasant but I do not ask her anything. She has been forgetting her lunch and coffee twice this week, I would normally text her, but decided not to. We have a scheduled meeting on Monday and will be able to see what is being asked for. My L says this is very unusual, as normally there would have been a proposal made before the meeting. Its all good and I am looking forward to moving on.

I have asked my group of friends to attend a octoberfest on Sept. 29th all have said they will get back to me... I am going regardless.

Many events coming up at the social club, I am going to have to hire a new employee for me to attend some of these. I have been receiving resumes and will narrow down my search soon.

If you are reading this please know there is light where there is darkness... you will get here... trust the vets. This is by far the best site when dealing with D. Follow a plan... GAL!!!!!

[bhappy2]

Updating:

Was supposed to have our first conferenc today with both W's L and my L. I got home from work a little late 8am and went straight to bed, woke at 12:30pm and W was not home. I showered and got ready to go... got to W's L's office and W was sitting in car she looked at me and I looked back, no wave. I walked into office where surprisingly W's L's office was very nice and accomodating, asked if I want water. They said it will just be a few minutes I said ok, W was no where to be seen. My L shows up and the two L's say hello in the waiting area. W's L asks my L if they could just talk in the hall for a minute.

My L tells me to wait in the waiting area, so i do and she comes back and says I need to speak to you in the hallway. I said ok and we go out there and she says your W is a complete loon! She will not meet with me and my L in the same room, she said she is scared. My L went pretty crazy on the opposing L and said that all this will be noted they the other side is now uncooperative, they scheduled the meeting, only to pull this nonsense just as we ge there. I mean really we are ready to move forward and she does this. Now she has to formally write up what she wants ...

So I was in the L's office for basically 5 minutes, and it cost me $500.00.... good job W. I have accepted the fact we are getting D'ed and now its about making it drawn out and cost more.

BTW its 4 hours since the meeting and W has yet to come home. Guilt is a funny thing isnt it.

I am proud of the way I have grown, it is with the help of so many on this site. After this meeting I went to the gym and worked out then had a great lunch/dinner. No head space for W anymore she can run that train off the tracks!

[HelenaJ]

What in the world. Why?? Scared to meet with you in the same room but she is still living in the same house as you. Very strange. I tell ya, this stuff is not for the faint of heart. My thoughts are that shes stuck between a rock and a hard place now bc none of this is happening the way she played it out in her head and even if she changed her mind now, shes likely sensed you wouldnt want her back.

[bhappy2]

What in the world. Why?? Scared to meet with you in the same room but she is still living in the same house as you. Very strange. I tell ya, this stuff is not for the faint of heart. My thoughts are that shes stuck between a rock and a hard place now bc none of this is happening the way she played it out in her head and even if she changed her mind now, shes likely sensed you wouldnt want her back.

I just have no idea anymore, she is not telling her L what she wants its like she's afraid to say. She just made another big dinner for everyone. I will continue to just live my life.

[bhappy2]

Journaling:

Went to another party last night, it was a good time with many laughs. There is a couple who are constantly trying to hook me up with their friend. I know her well I am just not ready to date. I did have a few beers, I wanted to wait until Aug 25th but thought I few wouldnt hurt. I brought a Rubiks cube to the party and everyone was fascinated by it as it brought back memories from our childhood. Great conversation piece and people were really trying to solve it.

Only ran 17 miles this week and I should be upping the mileage, I will do over 20 this week with a 5K on Saturday morning with D24. She will be home for the weekend. I have been playing at least three games of chess a day as I really enjoy it.

Work is going well and i will grow the business as soon as everything settles with my sitch.

Looking forward to this coming weekend as my cousin turns 60 and I will be roasting him. Then off to a huge block party that I go to every year for the last 15 years.

W was nice all week trying to ask me things and make conversation, I was pleasant and responded appropriately. I just find it odd that W would not meet with me and L's but will now try and speak, or help me with some things.

[Maika]

WHAT? I just don't understand what happened.

This whole thing with the L's and then nothing? Yeh, the best thing you can do is live your life even more and TxHubby this sitch.