New thread. Thanks again to everyone that's replied. Your input has been awesome.
W and son will be returning home later. I sent W a 'goodnight' text last night (moment of weakness for sure). She didn't reply, but could have been asleep.
Anyway, not really looking forward to having any R talks in the next few days. I know she'll want to at least see where 'I'm at' with things. Ugh, this [censored].
Married: 15yrs Ages: Me 49, W 44 Kids: S12 BD: around 4/14
