Getting Back to my Old Self

[DonH]

Juju I agree with some of your observations but not all. She is not emotionally unavailable- at least I don't see that. She seems into me and tells her friends so. When we first went out she told me I was outside of her box. She's dated mostly younger, tall farm boys. Her last BF was 34. Most of the guys she didn't "date" she admits. I think there are many things. She thought i may be a player. She's been dumped by guys who go to another girl - like Ginger. She told me early on she's continuing to date me because I make her laugh show her a good time and treat her better and nicer than most guys. She then said after our third or so date that the more she gets to know me the more attractive I become. There is huge sexual attraction on both sides. Her daughters and parents like me a lot. So take away whatever baggage she has and things are good I don't think either of us thought it would go this far and thus long.

Hope that sheds light yet then what else is up? Im not sure. She well may be looking for an excuse to run since she's scared. The comment I made was on the phone. She told me her mom told a friend of hers how proud she is of her and happy she is dating me. I blurted out without thinking "why would she be proud of you?" I really meant why would she be proud of you for dating me. I'd never say there is no reason to be proud of her for other things - never. I apologized hugely but she still stuck with that was rude. So now she's on vacation with her family and claiming her parents like her siblings much more than her. Said it's always been that way. She told her dad and he said she was acting crazy. Her ex put her down. So knowing this my comment really could have hurt her but man I'm only human! I miss spoke. I've never said anything like that - even kidding. She is almost like get them before they get to you.

So has she just pulled it together these two months and now the real her is coming out? I know she has the baggage but figured she sees I'm not a player etc. still i don't see this being a love connection but still think we can spend more time together and who knows. It just is a turn off. I'm still willing to give her a chance here but won't put up with this forever. Again Its been good and a lot of fun for the most part other than the last 10 days has just been different. If this is the real her I won't keep good my. If she had an off week and it dies not repeat again soon I'm going to give her the benefit of the doubt. I've not connected thus well with someone in a year or two.

I think the next few days will tell. I'm fully intend to discuss it with her. I just hope she does not bail. It's odd to me how she can say we had such a great time on i day then do a week of being distant. Then again we are both on vacations and both have been busy with only texts. I'll know more Sunday afternoon.