Is there hope? I have a WW

[LANE777]

SATURDAY
So I have had the kids all week long. This is the weekend that we were going to go to my sisters cabin. But since W has been pushing D with paperWORK EYC. I asked that we cancel.
So W and her family planned a day trip today...guess what? it was canceled as well. So W just picked up the 4 kids to spend the day. I was outside when she pulled up in the driveway. She got out and I just wanted to be nice and upbeat and pleasant. I just said Hi and hows it going? . She came in the doorway. I asked when she was going to bring them back...she said later tonight. I said "sounds good" And they left. I really could have used some new clothes or something just to make me look better.I actually looked pretty good but kinda wanted to magnify that I am doing fine w/o her etc.

So today I think I will go find me some clothes. I already lost 20 lbs the first 2 weeks after she left. You all know that feeling when you don't feel like eating. However, my appetite is back and I have been eating very well. I call it the "back on the market diet. Actually, I really don't have any desire to date or anything like that. This is still fresh. 3 months since she left seems like an eternity but Im sure some of you would say that its very much brand new.

So not much interaction but it wasn't totally uncomfortable. I did hide the fact that I wish I was going with them. I guess on a good note, she didn't hand me any paperwork..lol. I kinda half expect that every time she comes over.

My feelings about detach. I know its the right thing for me right now. The last week or two has been a detach marathon and our contact has been very minimal. Its starting to feel like she's someone that I used to know and its scaring me that she is going to be gone for good. Then I remember we have 4 kids together. Eventually if I keep getting better at detaching, I will be able to have a decent visit with her like talking to a long lost friend...probably months from now so no expectations.

I just thought of something. She really is someone I used to know because she is totally different now.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Thanks for all of your replies and advise. It making my brain see things in a different perspective. Just need to relax and enjoy the journey.