Arsh I completely relate to much of what you say. My D wishes many times at bed for us to be a family. it is FAR easier to accept the loss of the W/H than it is the loss of the family to D. it is the single most unacceptable part of this life chapter to me. for us who wish to try and keep the family together, it is unfathomable how our W/H can simply walk away. as I've said before it's another way that the WAS pushing the LBS along the road to detachment and strength. problem is that WAS is the only one who can restore that which we most treasure restoring for our Ds, the intact family. such a conflict in us as LBS on that reality.
The personal trips...yep W has taken those. stay completely clueless on all of that. none of the answers to any of ours question are worth knowing. heck give up on even having the questions!
"All I wanted is a simple life, a happy family for my kids, a loving spouse to grow old with. My dreams have been shattered"
AMEN to that Arsh! That is all that so many of us wanted and yet here we are, we didn't choose this life, we can't change this life so all that we can do is make the most of the blessings that we have and go on. Couple of days ago upon waking up my D and bringing her downstairs, in my arms she said "I love sleeping in my big bed". No matter the swirl of all of the big stuff happening in my life, that small thing will NEVER leave me and it's those small things that are the absolute best parts of life. Prayers to you and your D's! You are not alone.
