Ovr, all of us want to do this, blame ourselves, take the guilt and think of the woulda shoulda scenarios. What you need now if self care and time away from her. Why are you giving her chances of taking any more digs at you? Steve is right, she is playing the victim card right now. Can you not validate where it is valid and cut the poison convos out? Next she will say you drove her straight into OMs arms, what then?