Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Feel very anxious and nervous today.
Headed home. Haven't had any communication with my W for 4 days.
I want to go home take her in my arms and just hold her.
I know I can't but that is how I feel. I don't know if I am dreading going back to face what is happening more or just nervous as to the reception I will receive.
Regardless, I will take a deep breath prior to entering . I am genuinely happy to see everyone as I have missed them.
How do I act towards her?
The break was nice, but I have this pressing need again to do something. That feeling of inaction. Patience is the key, but is this time just letting her get herself in a better position to go? I can't mind read, but the waiting is sometimes unbearable. Good part of the week was that I was able to focus. Made some great connections. And realized that I am a likeable, friendly person with a lot to contribute. My self confidence got a big boost and I needed that!

Still. I need advice on what I do now.

I feel that it has gotten worse since I started DBing 5 months ago. Some small signs, but 1 step forward then 4 steps back.

I will not give up, but I am just at a stand still.