so received a text about the D process. W wanting it to be done like months ago. um this process will take awhile. as if our case is the only one. the more irrational I hear her, the more I know no matter how I've loved her in the past, the only option is to move on and get away. it would be interesting? to at least understand her mindset. how W seems to have gotten more angry as time as gone on. I don't need it, again just more of a curiosity. i wonder if within side of her does W really know what's going on...anyway
Wouldn't we all love to know what they're thinking! It will dissipate with time, it's been years for me and I've long since come to accept I'll never know, and beyond that I've come to accept that it doesn't even matter anymore. I mean what reason could possibly be presented in which I would say "oh OK now I understand and I am cool with that." None, there really is no valid reason for my XW to have left. "Irrational" is a fantastic word for it!
Anyway it sounds like you're doing well, sorry about this latest development but if you think about it, it really doesn't change anything in your sitch. Just stay the course!