WW- Equalzr's saga pt 2. WW's & MLC'er advice plz

[equalzr]

I went to ic this week, and it really helped validate some of my feelings. I went and worked with the counselor my W and I went to when this whole thing was in the beginning stages...or what i thought was possibly the beginning of it. The counselor confired most of my feelings from our sessions together that my W didnt seem genuine about improving our M(i know, it was obvious). Counselor was shocked by all the events that have happened since then.

Even though my feelings were validated, ive found myself getting really angry ever since the session. Im going to continue ic for a bit to help deal with all of the issues i know have going on since W became a WW. On top of the hurt, im starting to deal with anger, resenment, and feelings of disgust. The whole thing disgusts me in so many ways, and ive started to find myself being repulsed by my W at times. I know its time to deal with these issues because i dont want them to start changing me from the inside out in a negative way.

Nothing has changed on the front with my W. Shes still M.I.A a lot of the time. She is the epitome of "all about me" and "its time to take care of me". Still no consideratuon to how anyone else is affected by all of this, but i know to expect that.

My S and I continue to remain close throughout all of this. W has been a little kinder to him lately and has spent a little bit of time with him here and there, so thats good although she dissapears for 7-8 hour stretches into the late night that are unaccounted for. I feel bad for him because i wouldnt want my mother out there running the streets or whatever late nights and nobody has a clue whats going in. That part makes me pretty sad for him, and she was an awesome mom up until this, and overall shes still probably a good mom. She did set the bar pretty high for herself though.