Sent my wife a text back saying I wasn't going to have the conversation she was asking for over text, and said that I am available to chat this weekend at some point. Was polite, but to the point without any emotions. Haven't heard back from her, which was to be expected. The ball is in her court. I sense she knows I am not going to sign the simple divorce paperwork as I have no obligation to do so.
I think it has finally hit me. I have finally accepted that my marriage is probably over. For the last 7.5 months I have held onto hope, but as of sending that text and not hearing back from her, I truly feel like I can detach the way I have needed to since I started DBing about a month and a half ago. It's time to move on with my life, focus on getting my health back (another neck surgery) and focusing on my career. I am normally the hardest worker you will meet, but this has been really tough on my job and I have lost my drive to succeed. No more. Time to be awesome again.
I still think about her, and if she ever showed true signs of wanting to make it work, I would welcome her back with open arms, but I am not expecting that at all. There has been no sign of repentance, though she continues to say this is all her fault and she is sorry. Still don't buy it.
Thanks Steve and AS for the advice in my short time here. I will still journal and provide updates as they come along, but just wanted to share that I finally hit the point where most LBSs reach after a while of seeing no progress from the WAW/WW. I'm sure there will still be days that I get down from time to time, but I won't let that control me.
