I'm sorry it is still so tough, but you know that. Again, all you can decide each and every day is whether you can take it on that day.
You know, you don't have to let her little games get to you. You don't have to notice the eyes, or feel the pain of the dispassionate voice or the cold shoulder. YOU can make the decision that you are not going to let those things bother you. You have been to a circle of hell that few can imagine (I still cringe at her taking the children around OM and having them wear clothes he bought, etc). If you can survive those things, you can make it through this.
The only person you control in this is you and your feelings. If you can't change your situation, your only choice to maintain sanity is to change the way you feel about it.
I once read this post someone with an MLCer wrote. They said if you can take the bad stuff and instead replace it with an image of her sitting on a park bench thinking through the things she needs to think through and how she is going to get back to you all, then it is a lot more bearable. I do that sometimes. Instead of the affairs and the lying and the abandonment of the kids, I just think of him sitting on a park bench, doing what he can to work through his problems. It may not help him, but it sure does make me feel a lot better about the situation.
