As I've told other posters, the posters that struggle the most here are the ones that put the least emphasis on GAL. One poster that has always struggled mightily, when I asked last week what his GAL plans were for that night, responded "be bored out of my mind....."
Very dangerous. Go out with friends, but ask them NOT to talk about the sitch. The fact that you think about it all the time means you aren't concentrating on other things, and trying to get your mind off of it. Find ways to stay busy! I don't care if its as simple as cleaning out the gutters, you have to be busy in order to move forward.
Ya, it was easier to put it out of my mind when I was sure I wanted to save the M. I kinda made my peace with whatever would happen. Now that I'm on the fence, I keep thinking about it. Stuff like, even if the unlikely event happens that she says she wants to work on us, I'd need various reasons/assurances to consider it. I know I shouldn't even entertain thoughts like that, but like I said, it's near impossible not to keep running all these scenarios through my head.
I won't really see her for a while now. I have a baseball game tonight, and she'll probably be asleep when I get home. Then her and son are going to her sisters out of state until Sunday. Trust me, I won't just sit around with my thoughts. Her sister knows at least some of what's going on, and she's contemplating divorcing her H too. Could be a weekend of man-bashing. lol
Married: 15yrs Ages: Me 49, W 44 Kids: S12 BD: around 4/14
