davide, I "hope" I am taking the right steps. yes my emotions are raw, although I don't feel they are at the micro level specific to what W did or didn't do, but rather at the macro relationship in general level if that makes sense. you know the whole touching your hand on a hot stove...well did that once, gave it a second chance...like I say my friends/family are all for "the third time being the charm", I'm just...it's a terrible thing to love being a husband, father, family man and yet fail at it repeatedly...just the sober reality of where I am right now...
and yes this walk awayedness is not at all exclusive to women at all. many ladies on here are dealing with appalling behavior by their WAHs just as us men. i truly believe this a modern day problem across both genders. we have been conditioned to believe that OUR own personal happiness trumps all, to take all we need and give back nothing if it does not suit us. my aperture from the male side is simply when ladies walk, they are far less likely to walk back. there's that one video Michelle did where she talks about how far some men have changed themselves, improved themselves and the ladies who left never appreciate/reconsider their D decision. every single time I watch that video, frustrates the crap out of me and not just for my sitch...but I guess nothing can change that...
