Hi everyone, I apologize for the long rambling message yesterday. I'm still struggling with a lot of thoughts about how I'd move on without my husband. I wasn't looking for any particular response aside from wondering if anyone else wonders those things but today I would appreciate a response on today's events.

My husband came to town for a job interview today. Afterwards he drove to our place for a brief visit before going to stay with his family. Our daughter was playing with him in the other room when she asked if he could come back to live with us. He said "I'm trying to find a job to be closer to you." So in other words, no, he's not coming back.

On Saturday night my daughter didn't want to talk when my husband called and when I dialed him back a while later for her to talk to him, he was clearly out and didn't want to talk. He sounded annoyed and said he'd call the next day. That made me think he was probably on a date.

Then today his phone rang and he put it on speaker phone and it was a woman. He said he's visiting <said our daughter's name> and he'll call back after he leaves in ten minutes. He spoke in English so that makes me think there's a new woman or perhaps the same one from January.

Then as my husband was getting ready to leave he did the thing that I really hate - he started trying to talk and ask questions. He was asking about my job, our trip next week across-the-country, and other stuff. He said he may not come back for a few weeks now because he found some temporary work in his area (or because he met another woman probably). I couldn't look at him or act happy or carefree. I responded with simple words like "sure" and "great" but that's the best I could do.

Then after my husband left my daughter started crying. She said she misses her father so much. I called him for her to talk to him as he drives to his family's house. He said he'll stop by again tomorrow on his way to the airport. Then he called back three more times to talk to our daughter but I really don't know how he can think that's sufficient.

I think my husband was considering reconciling but likely met another woman in the past few weeks. This, along with him losing his job and still not really 'waking up' makes me think there's little hope.

I just feel so sad. Our poor innocent daughter was saying to her father " you have to come back and live with us. You have the same eyes as me. You have the same skin as me. We both have the same hair." He didn't say anything to reassure her. Then even when she was crying he didn't think to turn around and come back to see her longer.

I feel terrible to bring a beautiful child into this world with a father who doesn't care about them. I wish more than anything to give her what seemingly every other kid has - a family with a mom and dad living together. There are so few examples of other types of families around us.

I wish there was something more I could do to increase the chance of fixing things with my husband but I don't see any hope. He was so great before because he loved me. When he stopped loving me he stopped caring even 1%. Now other women get all his love and attention while my daughter and I struggle to rebuild our lives alone. I wish I could have more hope of meeting a great new guy to get a second chance.