LH19,
Thank you for the advice. Yes indeed, I do sense the "illusion of action" out of myself. It's just that my sitch has been 8 months now. The situation keeps getting worse. I slowly feel I am actually going to lose my family. When it just started, things are not that bad. We are getting along just fine. When I review the entire process, indeed whenever I lose my cool in front of her, things get a little bit worse and she gets colder. The colder she gets, the more desperate I am and the more I pursue. I am trapped in this cycle. It's so hard to break it out. I can't even focus on my work now, which will really cost me in the long run. I am very well aware of that, but I just can't get my mind off my sitch. I am pathetic.


H: 31 W:31
M: 6 T: 10
S: 4
BD: 12/2017
In house separation: 12/2017