Advice on my Scenario Pt. 22

[OrangeK]

I dont care if i need a damn check list, or a weekly goal sheet or something, or a dozen hard questions to answer. IDK.

I know what i WANT. I want 20 min of uninterrupted time to tell EX all the things on my mind. but i know it wont do anything, it would be valueless to do so, she doesnt care, and shes fully aware of what she did.

I just dont get how she can pretend to be nice while hating me, and how she was able to pretend to be my wife while hating me.
Shes a piece of sh*t. Flat out.