I'm Broken II

[HelenaJ]

Thanks for posting. If only we knew for certain what the right thing is in difficult circumstances. Some right things are always right and never change regardless of circumstances, but those are like the Ten Commandments ha. Much else in life is grey and open to interpretation. I think honoring our vows and having at least a healthy interacting family, if not happy or healthy marriage, is still the right thing and I would choose that if I could. But I dont think we can get back there. Im not going anywhere, there is still time for him to change his mind. I dont think he will, but nonetheless, there is time. Much like you did with the one year timeline you set for yourself, I am waiting with the end in mind. As H and I drift farther and farther apart, our interactions become more and more strained and we are struggling, even as a family. Im not sure that I believe anymore that staying together as we are is best for the kids, we are simply deteriorating and there’s no other way to put it. That is why the marriage is the foundation of the family. Without it, well, I guess you become us. Our dynamic is sad, weird, tense, harsh, and most of all extremely unfortunate bc it doesnt have to be this way.