Advice on my Scenario Pt. 22

[OrangeK]

Sorry, its just frustrating answering the same question multiple times.

I get that the theme here is Divorce avoidance and saving MR.

That was my original intent when coming here.
I have had to process a lot of emotion since joining in April.

I have since given up on the possibility of R, at least with avoiding D.

My EX would have to go through a lot of personal journey before we could consider R, and I likely wouldnt want to then anyway. She has a LOT of personal issues to A. Realize, and B. work on overcoming.
As do i. Im just glad ive gotten past A. Realization.

I have not been the best DBer by a long shot, i have a lot to work on myself, as well as lingering pain and hurt from EX.

What my goal is now is to get D over with, and let the dust settle. I dont want an enemy for life, i wanted a life with this woman, now i do not, but i dont want a nemesis either.
I just want things to get to the point a lot of divorced people here have, a calm, easy going situation where we barely have to deal with eachother, and when we do, it is not a pissing contest.
that is all i seek.
I still regret the loss of my MR, but it is what it is.
S3 is the one paying the price now, and i cannot abide that.
He never asked for any of this.