WW- Equalzr's saga pt 2. WW's & MLC'er advice plz

[equalzr]

I let my self get sucked into a debate with the W today unfortunately. I dont know why i let it continue to happen. Started out sbout oir S and eventually came back around to me and me being the cause of a lot of problems. For whatever reason, whether i was the bread winner or stay at home parent, i never contributed as much as her according to her. Ive never understood this, i thought we were a team but i guess not in her mind???

Im starting individual counseling again this week. I really need to get in and begin healing/repairing. Im hoping i can begin to rebuild my confidence and hope to learn how to cope with whats going on better. Id really like to begin puttimg some order back in my life. Everything feels like its in dissaray right now. There is no rhyme or rhythym, so im not being as productive as i can be. I dont have any time to waste, so i need order, goals, and motivation. First two might be easier than the last one until i kick this depression thing once and for good.

I never want to feel this helpess again in my life, and that will be my motivation going forward. Ill use that to drive me. I still cant believe my M is where its at today. I dont even understand the point of getting married if you dont plan on being committed. Still having a hard time that my W thinks its ok to have an A, and continue to make me sound like a bad guy. I never asked for any recognition for what ive done, because im supppsed to do it, but its amazing how people have selective memories when they are trying to make themselves feel good.