I took the CYA advice... I now know that W told the kids they would be leaving in 1 min, then one of the kids quickly said about the lady asking for my phone number. W said "mummy does want daddy to be happy... just not with me". Kid then said my new hair makes me "look way younger". W then said it's "much, much, much, much better. It's very, very good, very good". W then stayed for an hour. From other comments it is now apparent that W is being delibrately awkward about me seeing the kids.

I have seen a couple of L and have now chosen one who I will see tomorrow. I have counselling help every few days but that one is likely to stop for a while. I also have a different one to go to starting next week.