Just venting... I am at my mums house with my eldest awaiting the arrival of my two youngest tomorrow with WAW. A quick exchange at a public place and then it's off for 5 days. It saddens me to see all the photos around mums house of WAW. I cannot tell my mum; she is old and would not bear to hear about this, so I am lying and saying WAW is away for work. My eldest kids think it is just a test for me and them to be able to spend time with their siblings away from WAW. My mum will see WAW and her parents on exchange day, so who knows how that will go. Holding my siblings and other family back from yelling at WAW for wrecking the kids lives.
I have to stay strong but I am scared at times. How will I manage custody in two different states with 4 kids? How will my two eldest handle yet another divorce in their lives? What will my xW and soon to be 2 xWs act with this arrangement? Not knowing hurts me. Working out at the gym and spending time with the kids helps. At times I think this is all a nightmare and my WAW will wake up from this and want to stay together as a family. But I know letting go is the best thing to do and I am doing my best to do so. I just regret the day telling my eldest they are going to experience another divorce. A part of me wants my WAW to be there with me to tell them, but I think she is too scared to do so. She never told me anything in person. Wants separation via text. Wants divorce via email and then does not talk. It's cowardly. Any tips on while the kids are with me? Do I send photos and let her know kids are ok? This is the first time they will spend overnight without their mom...
