Patience, DB, Detach... piecing or divorce

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Thanks Steve. W texts me just now. Maybe facetime later I miss her? Then says if you have any clean clothes etc for her thatd be great.... I havent responded. I of course already had done laundry and was planning on packing all D3s stuff.

Last night she says I hope you both sleep well. I fell asleep w D3 getting her to bed... texted at 1130pm- thanks you too, she got bigger and can reach the pedals on her bike and sent her a short video I took of D3 on bike.

I have said nothing about her and I. Even though I want nothing more than to date, get drinks, reconnect... loving marriage and relationship. Ive accepted I probably wont have that with her. And keep trying to pull away. I have to be better about caring less when she temp checks!!

Spending time down at the beach with friends and families. I want the happy family bad. I want to save my family, have fun with W. Just have to keep doing the opposite of what feels good for me in regard to W. Pull away GAL, DB, I need to be better about it!! At least when Im feeling down I dont tell her about it at all anymore. She tells me how she feels all the time.

When I picked up D3 W had picked up tacos for us so we ate there quickly. It was dinner time and I had a 3 hour drive from the beach. I focused on D3 and being happy, pleasant etc. W talking about anxiety with her family talking to her about stuff when D3 wants attention and W doesnt. Repeating story of 5 year old birthday party W crying about them singing to her and telling everyone to sing to her cousin who wants the attention, family laughing. Blow out poops, not sleeping, wanting a drink, wanting chocolate dessert she used to make us all the time, says she was going to make for all of us but didnt have enough syrup. A lot of negative, but none from me. She had a wicked smile on her face when talking about chocolate, I did say look at that smile and laughed. My thoughts were to grab her and pull her to me seeing that smile.

Anyway... back to DB, GAL and reality