Thank you dawn. I am so stressed out right now and feel kind of hopeless. Nothing is quite going right, and I don't even know where to begin. Obviously my priority is my housing situation. I did explain to D10 that as her Mother, I have to make the decision that is necessary and the best for both of us, even if it doesn't feel like it or she is not happy with it. I explained every decision I make has her best interest in mind. She gets it, but I know it's hard for her.
As for Band dude. I am glad I reached out. However, I am pretty sure he is online looking for the next one. I don't know if he will want to see me or talk it out. But if he wants to, he has to come to me. I really wish he would have shut his mouth in that moment. I wish I could turn back time on everything. If he would really get his head straight, I believe we could have something great. But his head is not straight right now. Who knows what the future brings, but I guess if it's meant to be, it will happen. Old Ginger would find a way to make it happen or force it to happen. But I don't want to.
I have IC tonight. I need it. Badly. I keep feeling like I circling back around to square one.
