Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Getting ready for my business trip today for the week.

Weekend went well. Kids are getting ready for back to school and we did spend some time together and it was great!

Mood was lighter than usual around the home. W still struggling health wise (bunch of naps, pain, issues, etc.), but I kept busy doing my things and of course getting ready for this trip.

Took the kids back to school clothes shopping yesterday. W tagged along. It was a really good day. Everyone was casual, relaxed and enjoyed themselves. There was zero tension at all. W even did something kind of our of the ordinary. Bought her a bottle of water at one store as she was thirsty. She took a drink and offered it to me for a drink as well. I can't remember the last time we shared a drink. Weird, but I felt good as it just felt normal and right.

Did our thing the rest of the day and we had a casual evening, watched a show or two. She was a little more chatty and vocal with her thoughts and comments. Not reading anything into this at all, but did enjoy it.

Looking forward to the break, concentrating on work and the new challenges ahead. Also looking forward to the time apart and hoping that we both have a chance to reflect and think for the week. I will be busy and keep myself busy. I probably won't be on here much, maybe late in the evenings or so, but I don't know if I will post too much.

Kids and I are getting closer everyday and I love this. Focusing on them more and more and they are responding very positively.

This trip is offering a nice break for all of us. I need to not think about this too much, and will keep in touch with my kids and give my W her space as much as I can. There will be social events on the trip, but it is all work and this will keep my mind off everything and hopefully I can get some rest!

Nothing else really. I could let me mind wander and worry what she is going to do, but I am really not. Here or not, she would do what she is going to do anyway at this moment. I can only control myself and the more I can detach and give her the opportunity to see what life is like without me for a few days will be nice.

I enter each week with hope. I got the pleasure of having my family in the same home for another week. I would change a lot, but at present, that is all I can hope for. Working on everything else and this new challenge will help with the 180's, db'ing and GAL's so YEA! This is just another step in the path to a new me and there is no doubt as to why I am here, which is to keep my family together and hopefully my W and I find a path to someday begin working on a brand new, better, amazing and fulfilling MR.