Ok, so today and this evening were interesting to say the least. W been threatening to tell the Kids for few weeks even months. I have been very firm that I must be present and we must agree what is being said. This morning the convo comes up again, instigated by W I might add, about the house being sold etc and along the way comes up the kids thing again. As always I tell her she needs to deliver the speech. I go out this afternoon for a few hours and when I return W tells me she has told the kids! I am furious - how dare she do that without me, not being there for the kids and not knowing what she has said. Tells me they were fine and they are excited to get two bedrooms, two birthdays, two lots of toys! I am so very angry, who died she think she is! She looks sheepish and offers a pathetic apology which I decline. Later when she leaves I speak to my children and discover that W only told them we would have two houses. My son was crying, trying to hit W and stormed to his room. Quite the different story W told me.
So during this exchange things got very emotional again and I think I totally blew DB again. I’m not sure I can do this anymore. I cannot trust her one iota. She lying about filing for legal sep. Has no lawyer. Had done no research. Tells me I need to divorce her! Angry I know so much about the process. Angry I looked into options to buy her share of flat. Angry I haven’t procrastinated on these things like I normally would. That we are selling the house and she is getting a lawyer to push it through. So on and so on. I did not validate. I was not as if. I showed her by my reactions that I haven’t even begun to detach even though I thought I had. It was left that I need to tell her a day this week when we can sit down and discuss all of this and how to split.
I am I no doubt now about two things; she is definitely siluffering from a mental breakdown, most probably MLC with depression and secondly that I have totally blown DB and will surely end up with a broken family. She is too hellbent.
