I would like nothing more than to have her stay with me nut previous reply's to my sitch woke me up. To quote a 38 Special song I have been Holding On Loosely. Its time to let go. This is part of my 180 In the past I would have begged her to try to work things out. The information I posted on what I will say to her provided no ultimatums, nothing forceful. I did my best to keep the pain I feel inside hidden. I did not focus on past problems only solutions.
If we continue the same way it will only add stress to my life. I need to move on. Maybe she needs to go and actually experience life away from me to knock sense into her. I hope my decision will make her realise our marriage is worth fighting for. The status quo just will not work. I do not want to be plan B. I want to be plan A. If she wants to try to rebuild the M, I will be ecstatic, I will not become the man I was, As our marriage became volatile I became more clingy, apologetic and smothering. I am the exact opposite now. Yes I love affection. Giving and receiving I really miss that but I need to be strong For my children and especially me
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
