I leave in a few days... I'll be sure to soak up some sun. Sure could use some here in the rain capital of the Northeast (so it feels lately). In the meantime, I have a lot of work to do!!
Quote: This sounds like a good week...especially the flirting!
This cracked me up. Thing is, my flirting back really needs some work! I think I've forgotten how that works.
In my brief interactions with H this week, H was doing that male "teacher" thing: sharing his expertise and seemingly enjoying the opportunity. And I appreciate that side of him tremendously so it was nice to see it resurface again. We always connect well when he is in that place.
Yeah, the friend thing is tough because what I realized is that the things I need from him as a friend are the exact same basic things--trust, understanding, honesty, loyalty, reliability, etc., etc.--I've needed from him as a potential partner during our attempts at healing and reconciliation. (The things I need to do are also similar.)
That raises a lot of questions for me... like will a release of M pressure somehow allow what I've worked for to come forth more consistently? Or does the lack of consistency on those fronts eliminate the possibility of being friends?
Big fat questions and I suppose they are ones I have to answer for myself. I have no complete answers... but oddly, I feel perfectly fine about having no answers. And that's growth for me.
In fact, ever have that feeling like something is about to shift? That's how I've been feeling. I'm not sure in which area of my life that's going to happen-- so many are in flux, really-- but it feels like being on the cusp of something.
