Figured since I'm not getting my work done today, I might as well post an update...
H came out of the dark this week with a business email, then a friendly passing along something email of the type he usually sends when attempting to reconnect with me. Impersonal way to do it, but it's what he does.
Then within 24 hrs. he called me at work (!) with an odd question...he heard I was having computer problems and looking at new ones... wanted to know what was wrong, etc. This information isn't true--I'm not looking for a new one and the only problem I'm having is one he's known about for 6 months.
I was friendly -- I was just me. He was all chatty and friendly and offering maybe he could come take a look at it, if I needed advice on computers, here's what he would buy, etc.
Then he launches into big long and a nearly entertaining if it weren't so expensive discussion about SUV repairs gone awry. It was a pleasant light conversation. By now, there are people lining up near my desk with projects... so I tell him I need to go.
Hmmm. What does one do with that? Well, I was just myself, and myself was rather DB-like that day. The call threw me-- was not at all expecting it. But after mulling a few things over, well, I now feel perfectly fine. There's nothing I need to do with it.
I'm on a good road, so I'm not going to analyze what he's doing or why right now. I finally feel really good with that.
He knows how to be in my life if that's what he wants. This is my magic show, and I get to run the auditions.
