As I haven't had any intimacy for more than a year now, it has crossed my mind to have an A.... but I don't have guts to do it .. yet. But I can honestly say in this board that I do miss a good [censored].
You already know this but it would solve nothing and only further complicate things. Rather go ahead and file for D, and then after you both have moved on, then find a new guy. I can understand what you are saying, and during my sitch when there was no sex (for months before, and months after BD), my baser impulses were definitely plaguing me. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't do it right.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
