my biggest advice for you is to really slow your roll. Everything in your sitch comes across as the biggest, most important thing. You are so wound up about things that you can't control. Focus that energy into a positive channel. Don't thrive on controversy, but find your own happiness.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.