Yet Another LBS w/ WAW

[hongaku]

Thanks, Lane. You're absolutely right about heeding my own advice, too. I think a lot of us here when we're giving advice and support to others are also in some ways trying to remind ourselves of what to do. It's easy to know and understand conceptually what the right course of action is, but quite another to truly implement it and stick to it with discipline. And actually detaching/letting go is the absolute hardest part; at least for me it is. I'm very glad we all have a forum like this to get support from and where it's safe to get some pain off your chest because we can all relate in one way or another.

I try to find things to do to keep myself busy, but there isn't a whole lot I can really do with no income. Most days, once I've applied to all the jobs I can find, exercised, meditated, helped clean my cousin's house and read a bit of self-help material, about the only thing I can find to do is learn to play and sing new songs on the guitar - which is both good and bad; good because I'm learning new stuff, but bad because I'm already drawn to melancholy songs and now literally everything I'm doing is a tear-jerker, love gone wrong, life s**ks type of thing. My cousin likes sad songs, too and when he gets home we usually play in the evening together. So my GAL game isn't very strong right now. There are actually several things I want to get involved in, but they will require that I have an income. For example, I want to take dance lessons because it's a total 180 from the sort of thing I'd ever have done in the past (and would shock the heck out of my W) and I want to get back into martial arts as it was something I used to be heavily involved in (and my W too when we were younger and before kids).

I know once I have a job I'll be able to keep myself busy in a whole different way.