Mrs JLS journey to saving the marriage

[MrsJLS]

It has been several days since I posted. H and I were away at his friends house in the middle of nowhere. It was interesting and lovely and we had a lot of laughs and fun together yet... there were misunderstandings too... and one morning I woke up in tears just being so torn apart by his lack of affection and constant rejection and my longing to have a happy marriage and a family . I have been thinking a lot about what Benito said about letting your spouse go... and if they return then it is much more solid than me trying to make this R and M work. The whole point of DB is to stop trying doing anything and get over your insecurities and be independent and confident and self sufficient. Intellectually I am aware of it but in my emotions I find this concept very challenging.

H is going away for boys holiday on Friday for a week with his mates ( I supported it) so we will have some valuable time apart...

I realise that this change of letting him go and fully accepting that my M might not work and be absolutely ok with that .. has to come from my heart. And I am putting that intention inside me. And be free myself and set him free. Sounds easy and romantic on writing but inside me I am shaken.