YIKES! Can't afford to lose Sun! (No problem with hijiking over here!)
Thanks for the post, Deb. Coming here and being able to vent and work through this stuff--on the BB and with BB friends-- has been so helpful in evaluating where I'm at, especially this week.
I'm feeling much better for that today, and as I realized this morning... as M. Williamson says in Enchanted Love, I've finally reached the point where I want a guy who can swim on his own, not one I am carrying to shore or dragging into the water.
So if H decides to be that guy in some reasonable timeframe, great. And if he decides to be a real friend, I'll work with that idea.
If not, well, I can still make the best of the situation and find the opportunities to enjoy the water. (thanks, Seattle, for reminding me)
So my act as if, well, I guess it's not really an act right now. That doesn't mean it's easy or that it's not scary. But I do know I can do it and that I feel very good about the person I am choosing to be.
