Re: MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART XI

[ItHurts]

Well I may not necessarily agree with Artista on that particular item. The reason being is WAW well knows that many other women are at my disposal when it comes to sex. She also knows they are good looking ladies. So I don't think she keeps mentioning that as a way to appease me because that would make no sense when she knows all I have to do is drop a text to Sue let's say, and I will be having sex that night. So I don't see WAW thinking I care that much about what she happens to think of my penis. Now if I was with no other options than WAW and WAW knew that, then perhaps WAW appeasing me would be a consideration. But as it is now, WAW knows I can have sex whenever I want...I think this is why she mentioned before the bonfire that it wasn't a romantic meeting and asked if I still wanted to take her. Because she knows I could take someone else where I knew the night would end with sex. So I don't think she had that self confidence as far as thinking I want to sleep with her and only her. I think she brings up my penis because she herself misses it. It's always in the same conversation where she is complaining about the ways other guys let her down. That's when that comes up.

For example, something I forgot to post that she said Saturday night...
She said something like "guys just don't know how to hit the spot! It's frustrating!"
After she said that I looked at her in the eyes and said..."Ummm excuse me? I know how to hit the spot...so please spare me." At that point she immediately starting laughing and said "Yeah, yeah you do."

Now I agree with some who say that I am not getting enough agressiveness from her. This is the main reason I haven't tried anything yet with her. She really hasn't earned it in my head. She needs to flirt more and be a bit more suggestive before I do anything like that. In that respect I agree with Artista....she has had plenty of opportunities to initiate sex, or at the very least opportunity to create a situation where sex could happen, and she hasn't. I just think this is because WAW is telling the truth here...she's not ready for sex with me...or anyone. She has this need for self sufficiency and independence right now. The same reason she left for Florida 4 years ago...to be independent. Trouble is she lived with her best friend down there and thusly never achieved that. So she's doing it here alone now. She has mentioned a few times that she went from living with her parents to moving in with me for 18 years, to moving in with her friend in FL. That she has never been on her own. So that's where I think she's at. I believe her when she says she's not seriously dating. So her relationship hesitation is less about me in particular and more about men in general. That's what my instincts tell me.

But in any case, I agree with Maika in that she's the one who walked, so she needs to chase...and chase hard. Sure she's been pretty relentless in terms of wanting to see me pretty much once a week or so and has always initiated said meetings. That was great early on...but now it's getting old. I need to see more aggressiveness from her, more intense pursuit out of fear of losing me from her. So until I see that there won't be any more meetings.