Can I really do this #5

[Dtrmned]

Steve, No. I know that it always my choice and is an option that I have mentioned that I am very much thinking on. I guess to be more specific in this question is that we seem to be "stuck" in this cease fire which feels like being stuck in a desert and you know if you walk either way you will eventually get to water, but instead you just sit in the middle of the desert dehydrating and dying in the land of indecision of which way to go. DB says never pursue. If I approach her in almost any way regarding anything outside of an immediate issue, it will most certainly be seen as pursuit. I don't want to create an R talk either. I know how that will end as well. It just seems that we are slowly but surely separating everything just piece by piece and that may just make it easier for her since the blows are smaller and spread way farther apart so she recovers before the next one comes. By the time she is ready to actually do something (if she is devious and has her plan together and forming or if she doesn't and just heads out into the world blindly) most of the stuff will be worked out. I know it would still be a shock to her with reality, but if she slowly but surely covers a lot of the smaller issues and stretches it out, it seems like it will be easier for her. I am not trying to make things difficult for her at the same time, I don't want to be a doormat and roll out the red carpet for the D as well.

Going through all of those thoughts makes me realize that my question is more of:

What, if anything, should I do differently right now, or am I just stuck in the desert?