Thanks all. Loves- your sitch gives me hope. I was unavailable for just a week or so and she noticed. Asking me if Im dating. Stalking my social media. Wanting to get to know me. I just gotta get back to it consistently. DBing does work even though it hurts you and feels awful because you want to love your spouse and you care about them. But like Sandi says do what works. I am going to be back to being unavailable. Too busy, detaching, having fun, being successful. Be the man only a fool would leave. Maybe Im too upbeat I dont know. But Im heading to the beach Thursday Ive been working with hundreds of kids all week.
Ovr- Im upbeat but its not fake. And its not about W. Im excited for my job. I moved my lacrosse club program - hundreds of players and families and it was a great move. Im excited for the future. Im planning trips and doing things I look forward to. I like my new location after moving a month ago. Yea Im still inconsistent at times and maybe I have NGS I need to work on. But Im attacking my fears. I know I need to stand up to W more. Not sure what exactly to take a stand on but will take it as it comes.
One thing Im unsure of is D3 is turning to D4 in 2 weeks. W says D3 wants to celebrate together. D3 has never said that to me. Maybe Ill ask D3, but I was planning to do a party without W.
Looking forward to hearing from you all.
H: 33 W:32 M: 5 T: 8 D: 4 BD: 6/2017 MO: 6/2017 House sold: 6/28/18 W wants to build friendship / relationship- 9/18 Paying $ support since 7/18. Physical Reconnect- 10/18 W Starts- IC / MC - 10/18