It sounds like things s#ck today. That's okay. It's normal. Don't run away from the pain. The trick is to sit with it and let it out, let it pass, without getting stuck in it too long. Give yourself some time to feel the hurt, but then have a plan to get out and do something fun. Watch a movie or exercise, or meet up with friends.
You can make it through this, but you have a long way to go, so have patience with yourself and with the process.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019