I feel like you are one of my guy friends. And I want to yell at you right now. Lol. I'm driving. But I feel like you need a swift kick in the booty. You aren't detached. You give in the second this chick questions anything. I suggest you reread the book and start over. For real. You continually do the same things over and over. But expect change. DID - it won't change until you do.