Jim and Davide thank you. Sorry it was not clear the way I wrote it. Yes WH is blaming me that him moving away and kids losing father if it comes to that will be on me as well. But I am done buying his BS, god knows what is on his mind. The real test as single parents has just started so I am going to let it play out. I did not sleep a wink yesterday night, as usual with an infant I only get 4-5 hours of sleep for last few months but yesterday I was alone without the kids and couldn’t sleep. They say when you die your whole life flashes in front of your eyes, it is kind of what happened to me yesterday, only the true meaning of the death of my MR played out. I crossed the pearly gates not guilty, I have mistakes and I have repents but I am not responsible for this demise. I know I should fight more for the MR but I am way too hurt and exhausted. He has separated a mother from her little children that is an unpardonable offence. He has taken away their family. He can put the D on hold or proceed, he can live his bachelor life he is free. I do not need him anymore, my H was dead at BD , I was grieving his loss and I am done. All that matters is the kids and me. I deserve better. My life is crazy heactic raising a toddler and infant for 5 days and 2 days of emptiness without them. I have to get adjusted to that. I feel like I am giving up on the MR, I will never file but I am done with this wayward man child. Do what works for just myself and the kids. I will use the forum to vent out for I feel only my fellow DBers can understand this true pain
