I feel your pain. I lost my first wife tragically 14 years ago and never thought I’d get over it. Really one just learns how to live with the pain. I didn’t think I’d find anyone else and ended up with my current W who filed for D a few weeks ago, so now the pain of losing my first W is made worse my this sitch. I felt suicidal too but at the end of the day I couldn’t leave my kids orphaned.
I feel like I’m also repressing the pain of my sitch, I don’t think it’s really possible so soon after the BD to be able to detach fully.
I really hope it gets better for you, I’m fine in the afternoons and evenings but wake up and feel so sad and anxious every morning.
Stay strong


Me:48 W:43, Kids:S19, S17, S10, S8
M:10 years
BD:06-18-2018