Your generosity in posting your letter just astounds me. I don't know how to say thanks for that. Just thanks, I guess. It is an amazing letter.
I have written a similar type of letter (more than one, actually) to my H. His response was to shortly afterward tell me that he wanted to "come home", to start that, to run away.
He's since (and suddenly) decided to proceed with a divorce, and has since that time had extremely limited contact with me and had no reasons to share with me for his choice or the limited contact.
So I guess I am not waiting for him to make a decision anymore, just hoping that he reverses this one given how we have spent the past year or given the feelings that he has shared with me or the intimacy we've shared.
Reading your beautifully written letter made me wonder-- have I already done what I was thinking about doing, this #1 option?
Or does it need to be more than a letter for us (because letters are more of what I do).
As much as I am sure this post sounds otherwise, I too have accepted that divorcing me may be the decision he is most comfortable with making and the path he truly wants to take in life (though it doesn't seem that way from how he acts).
I'm happy with the life I have created on my own, though, like you, I'd like another shot at this, or rather would like to work with the one shot he keeps starting to give us.
Ah well. Perhaps this ball really isn't in my court any longer.
